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[Saturday night ]
8th June 2003 11:29pm
30 pack challenge.........was a success. For the most part. Three teams. Three 30 racks. 1 winner......

We were supposed to kill our 30 pack within 2 hours. I finished my part first,but 15 mintes late....But no one else finished theirs peroid,so I guess i am the winner!!!! Yaaaay!!! what do i get?...nothing...great.

Got sweet little Pam to say "I love the cock" into my camera. Haha Pam.
Oh,and got some perky boobs and some panties on tape also....muahahahah.

Stood over a passed out James and poured warm water on his head while making hacking,coughing and puking noises...He still thinks I actually did puke on him....so funny.

The night ended with pretty much everyone passing out.

Listen...next weekend is gonna be a softie ok? More weed,less Beer...it has to pass like that,things are getting out of hand....Fighting,breaking shit,water and beer everywhere...puking contests(lol)...Lets knock it down a few notches for a few weeks, aight?
mood   //    ecstatic
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[ Numbers ]
2nd June 2003 1:18pm
For all you people that havent been able to easily get in touch with me, here's my new cell number:

781-603-8101

and if you have a Nextel,here's my direct connect:

180*31*7455

peace.
mood   //    amused
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Hey Hawes, this icon is for you!!! Domokun mania!! booyaa!!
mood   //    cheerful
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[ one last thing ]
1st June 2003 7:40pm
Just wanted to say,isn't my last post the greatest livejournal quiz ever?

Taco Bell makes everything better.
mood   //    hungry
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[ Blam ]
1st June 2003 7:37pm


Find your inner fast food! by Emily

mood   //    crappy
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[ Changing Lives ]
28th May 2003 12:22pm
Its like the stories you hear about rich people. How they have all this wealth,all this financial freedom,and all these materials.A big house,a fast car,a swimming pool.But they got to bed every night with tears in their eyes.Because they don't have the one thing they need most.The one thing money cannot buy.The one thing that has to be truly earned and worked for. Priceless love. Someone in their life to care about them,to be there by their side,to say "I love you" when you fall asleep,and mean it.And they walk through the days depressed and angry that no one loves them.But those are just stories made up by hollywood. In reality you can not only have no one to love you,but you can also have nothing else.You can lose everything you had.Your job,your apartment,and the person you love.And it can happen so fast.You can live a life of loss.You can lose your grandfather at a young age .You can live through your parents divorce,and the psychiatric appointments that followed.You can live through a childhood of tourment from schoolboys.You can live through your mother bringing home another boyfriend. You can live through a step-fathers belittling nature.You can live through your first love cheating on you....12 times.You can live through the loss of your home because of you mothers alcoholism. And live through bouncing from home to home for the next 5 years.You can live through depression and anger.You can live through the rejection from someone you love with all your heart. But at the end of the day,when you go to sleep,you cant live through the feeling of lonliness.You cant live through the thoughts of another life. One with less pain and hard times. Its like going to school. Seeing that girl. The one you know that if you had the balls,the confidence,or the chance,you would walk right up to her.You would ask her out,and she would say yes. And you would leave that school,with her. And somewhere down the line,after you didnt ask her out,she comes back to you. You think of what could have been. The life you could have had.Maybe not everyday,or every week,but she does come back. She makes you think...if I had the balls,what would it have been like if this or that didnt happen. That girl is my life.These are my everyday thoughts.
mood   //    gloomy
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[ So Bored.... ]
22nd May 2003 5:04pm
You are Morpheus-
You are Morpheus, from "The Matrix." You
have strong faith in yourself and those around
you. A true leader, you are relentless in your
persuit.


What Matrix Persona Are You?
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No, I won’t let you control my fate
While I’m holding the wait of the world on my conscience
No, I won’t just sit here and wait
While you wear your options
You’re making a fool of me
No, you didn’t dare try to say that you don’t care
And solemnly swear not to follow me there
No, it ain’t like me to beg on my knees
Oh, please, oh, baby, please
That’s not how I’m doing things
No, I’m not upset
No, I’m not angry
I know love is love, love
Sometimes it pains me
With or without you
I’ll always be with you
You’ll never forget me
I’m keeping you with me
No, I won’t let you take me to the end of my rope
While you burn and torture my soul
No, I’m not your puppet
And, no, no, no, I won’t let you go
mood   //    contemplative
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[ Mmmm ]
20th May 2003 11:27pm
Sometimes people have wicked fucked up dreams. One of my personal favorites comes from my good pal James.
His mom was nice enough to make him a sheppards pie with all the fixin's in this dream.
But she added one final ingredient, which you can see behind the cut.

Behold,tasty treatsCollapse )
mood   //    amused
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[ Word up ]
19th May 2003 5:14pm
Why the fuck do I feel like shit? ALLERGIES!!! Fucking allergies....Why the fuck did I have to put the heat on last night coming home, but am currently sitting here in my boxers sweating my nuts off? NEW ENGLAND!!! Or more specifically, New England weather. 45 degrees one day, 85 degrees the next. Just like the queer old saying goes: "Don't like the weather in New England? just wait a minute."

Talked to Charly very briefly today,she is doing good,except for one thing,but I am not going to blab that stuff on here cause I dont want her to get more upset. Don't worry smurfy, you will be home soon and it will be all better...at least till you go back...I promise :0)

Being back in Weymouth is good so far,this summer will be great. Lots of parties to go to and lots of fun to be had. Makes me wish I had a female friend(not just a hook up)to share it with, but I guess it's ok I don't....I will just treat myself to some freedom....even tho freedom to do what I want is strangely depressing in some quasi-ungrateful way. I guess its because of all the shit I have been put through recently,and all the stuff I have lost. But maybe in a few months or whatever my losses will be gains....maybe I will be special to someone again...maybe I will be the supposed apple of someones eye...the cream of their coffee....I will wait, forever if I have to. Cause as many times as its left my lap on its own, it will eventually fall back....correct?
mood   //    crappy
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[ My Weeks Plan ]
12th May 2003 11:55pm
On this weeks agenda, we have as follows:

Tuesday: Construction of the Beer Pong table,Whiffle Ball(possibly),Pre-party for Staind
Wednesday:(if all goes well)Live intimate free acoustic Staind performence,Boston bar scene,crash at Elizabeths
Thursday: A.M. viewing of Matrix Reloaded at Fenway Theater, another Staind concert.
Friday: Blaze, Jade


Notice that the phrase's "find a job" or "become less of a loser" are nowhere to be found?
mood   //    drained
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[ Life Update ]
9th May 2003 11:11am
Well it been a week or so since I posted last,and some stuff has changed.
I have,in fact,moved out of Rockland. Long story short, Paula and I broke up,she found someone else,she didnt wanna work it out with me,he doesnt like me living there,she asked me to move out,and here I am....at my grandmothers house.Mostly because I am in between jobs and it was short notice, and partly because my grandmother needs me here. She is old and cant do the household chores anymore. And she has been basically all alone since my grandfather died 5 years ago

For lack of a better term towards the emotional aspect of this situation, I will just say this: Life sucks! But life goes on, and there are more fish(heh heh, fish..)in the sea...or so they say...that,in my mind,is the worst analogy ever. Just a cheesy way to make you feel better. But if thats only thing anyone can come up with,then its what you have to accept. In essence its true,cause there is many more girls out there and lots of single ones. Someone out there will want me...I hope....I hooked up with his chick at a party last weekend. I didnt do anything else besides kiss her,basically because she is a virgin,an I would probly be wasting my time. I have been talking to her online, but I havent called her. She i supposedly extremely shy. Last night I went to James' house and she came over....Well she must be extremely shy because she said "hi" and "bye" and that was it...over the course of like 3 hours....Her friends say she is just wicked shy,but I hate games,and I am really not in the mood for them...or a new relationship....so whatever,i we hook up again,good...if we dont...I aint heartbroken heh heh. Relationships suck anyway...I am now anti-relationship for an undetermined amount of time. I will however, bang chicks..hahahah.
mood   //    discontent
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[ WTF ]
2nd May 2003 12:45am
FUCKING KILL ME NOW...

JUST TAKE MY LIFE...END THIS SHITTY HAND I WAS DEALT.
mood   //    distressed
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30th April 2003 11:22pm
Prior to this post I sat and stared at the posting box for 15 minutes....no interupptions....just staring.

Trying to think of some thing to write....

I didnt come up with anything....

Sorry.
mood   //    apathetic
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[ Bored... ]
29th April 2003 10:54pm
Been kinda busy lately,but not really. Just trying to figure out some stuff and prepare for the move. For those of you who dont know, I am moving out of my house in Rockland,for reasons I would rather not get into because it would just cause more problems. My friend Charly got front page of the patriot ledger last wednesday,it was pretty cool. I got my copy,I think I am gonna get it autographed. You rule Charly,kick some ass and be safe. I went to WWF RAW last night,and it was friggin awesome. Very fun and eventful show. For some reason when you are watching WWF on TV it seems less interesting,but live it is so much fun. Screaming and yelling and the pyrotechnics and shit. Awesome. I also actually got out and got some exercise today. I played some whiffle ball with my boys,eneded up being a tie though cause we got sick of playing. After that we went to Taco Bell and surprisingly I do not have the shits. Haha. Anyway.....Just sitting here being mad bored,so heres a quiz I stole from someone on my friends list:

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)High
Level 7 (Violent)High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Extreme
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Very High

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test

I guess I am going to the eigth level of hell,that sucks.
mood   //    crappy
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